Sunday, January 15, 2012

Me, Me, Me

Carla Sonheim once wrote: "Those of you who know me are wondering, 'How the heck is Carla going to be able to afford a month in India?!!' Answer: I’m not sure exactly, (but am relying on the words of R. Buckminster Fuller — and it bears repeating: 'You can rest assured that if you devote your time and attention to the highest advantage of others, the Universe will support you, always and only in the nick of time.)

And though my interpretation of the quote may seem (in subsequent discussions with Carla) somewhat different from why she repeated it in her blog, I felt rather selfish and I began thinking when is a weaver good enough to start sharing the knowledge, and what way would suit me if I were to do it.

Then someone posted a link to this list in Facebook, and BANG, the last item hit me in the face so hard it actually hurt!

I can't teach; I tried it once with a good friend and we nearly killed each other and we don't talk any more. I can't demonstrate because I get so nervous I make numerous mistakes. I've been asked a few times if I take in interns and immediately I declined because we have no spare room, we eat so irregularly, Ben's a super private person, the house is dangerously messy because my work is all over, our house is not exactly within walking distance from town and buses run hourly if that frequently, and there is the unsmall and unpredictable matter of my head.

But one of the qualities I don't like about some members of my family is they are so quick and adept at listing reasons why they can't do something, never considering why/how they can, and the possibility they might actually enjoy it. So maybe time for a rethink, eh.

The good thing, though, is, Carla makes us draw animals, real and imaginary, and animals don't appear on my radar, so I got stuck with her course immediately after a cruisy, wind-in-my-hair start. But now, I think I can draw several versions of a Sel-Fish!

2 comments:

  1. Hi Meg,

    I just want to say that I think you underestimate your influence a little. You do teach by sharing your struggles and successes on this blog. You also inspire with your P2P challenge. During the months that I was working on that challenge, I moved my weaving in directions I never thought I would go and I can't wait to see where the next iteration takes me.

    Also, have you considered teaching online? There are many ways to teach online, many of which don't require live demonstrations.

    ~Heidi

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  2. Thank you Heidi. I'm glad you enjoyed P2P. Having said that, you do get out as much as you put in in these challenges, to I think it is you who influenced you?

    Re. teaching. Not sure. I seem to have the "first novel" syndrome, where I want to teach anyone who would listen everything I know at once, immediately! LOL...

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