For some weeks I've been looking for something I'll know what when I've found it.
To the best of my understanding, it's a clue, an opening, a nudge to push me in a new direction, or further from where I am or was at one point, to enable me to... (I hate myself for thinking in these words but this is as accurate as I can make,) increase my visual and design vocabulary. Or, to weave things that look dramatically different to my usual without discontinuing my usual, so I can go back and forth.
Naturally, I Googled handwoven cloth/s images and saw a lot of lovely stuff, but nothing of what I need now. I looked up textile/fiber art, but nothing made my wandering eyes gaze for long, silent minutes. Last night I got bored of flipping through other people's fab artwork, so I decided to resume cleaning my hard drive, something on my To Do list for years.
I know that technically my weaving is probably on decline; I liked looking at details from the middle of last decade, like these. I feel as though I haven't challenged myself for some time; this is from April 2009. I particularly enjoyed shifting through the P2P2 folder and though there are nearly 500 pics after culling twice, I didn't have the heart to cull further.
I enjoyed P2P2 tremendously in retrospect, because I couldn't weave due to a tennis elbow, so I used pens, papers, glue and scissors to experiment much longer than I normally would. (At the time, I was embarrassed about not being able to "complete" the project, and every day I had to tell myself it's OK to just go as far as I can.) I enjoyed the physical involvement of making up tiny mock ups; learned a lot not in my head but with my hands and eyes about my theme; learned I can learn so much from doing without analyzing; and loved living with these scattered around my living room.
You could say I looked within me to find something new, though it sounds so pompous I couldn't possibly voice it in person; nevertheless this would be part of following Randy's advice to be my own apprentice. It now appears I may only need one or two first clues, possibly somewhere around here, instead of in the ether.
But first, a fourth piece from the Not-Laharya warp.