At the risk of sounding self-centered and petty, if I left it at "I'm feeling content," I admit I'm not being entirely honest.
I feel terribly disappointed I couldn't put something in Lloyd's Awards, particularly because I had this for-me avant-garde idea. The colorful warp is hanging on the big loom and I'm almost reduced to tears every time I have to walk by it, so I covered the whole loom with a big sheet. I try not to dwell on it, but the opening is in 10 days, and Lloyd told me they had great responses and astonishing entries, but at this point, I don't know if I can bring myself to go see them. I have a difficult time trying to keep a straight face talking about the Awards with Lloyd or anyone else.
Because of the economic downturn, he couldn't tell if this can be turned into an annual event, or a biennial one, and worries he won't get the level of sponsorship from the two councils (municipal bodies) again, although there is apparently some hope for smaller private sponsorships.
I need to come to terms with this. And when the time comes, I will go ahead and weave and finish the project, so I can have it waiting for a suitable competition/exhibition.
I just have to get over myself first.